Day 2 of waiting for the garage to come and swap over cars and day 2 of being disappointed. After my day of being a domestic goddess yesterday I have run out of jobs to do now.
Walked over to mother's this morning to see if I could anything there. Obviously there is plenty, but mother won't let you throw anything away without a fight and I don't actually have the strength to argue with her at the moment.
She is very depressed and I can understand why, as being on your own all the time doesn't help any one's mood. Maybe I should have tried more to gently persuade her to move into shelter accommodation when my brother and sister thought she should move. But at the time she was so anti going because at that point she was coping pretty well on her own and she couldn't face the upheaval of moving. She got very anxious about what furniture would have to go and what she could take, and that was making her fearful. I don't think I have done her any kindness by not pushing her now as she is so lonely, but the worry was making her ill too.
Went and had my hair cut ready for my return to work tomorrow. Reni my daughter in law who normally cuts my hair is working so hard again that I didn't it fair to ask her on her day off. Actually this hairdresser actually cut it really well which gave me a boost. The hair dressers was opposite the sheltered accommodation that my sister wanted mum to go into, so I started worrying about mother all over again. I had rung the council before I went out to the hairdressers to see if they had a handy man service to do her garden at least to cheer her up, but no luck. I'll keep on looking, there must be some one out there who is reliable????
Had my physio this afternoon with Vera the Destroyer. She is a bit concerned that I'm still running hot. Hoping that maybe it is just the pneumonia kick starting my hot flushes again, but there again they were no picnic, so maybe I'd rather have the pneumonia instead! Mind you I'm as bad tempered with or without the menopause, so it's hard to tell what I'm suffering from!
Oh well earlyish to bed tonight so I'll be fresh faced for work tomorrow. Can't say I'm really looking forward to it I'm afraid, I just hope the black cloud that was looming over the workplace has left when I get back there.
Lots of love Debbie x
About Me
- Me...Debbie Burden... or known as Burders
- I'll be 55 this August... I've had bronchiectasis for ten years plus this year... End stage lung disease for the past year...been on oxygen for three years... and have I got used to it yet?... nah! I am now waiting for the biggie; a double lung and maybe a heart transplant. I love my life weirdly enough, because I have some wonderful family and friends who are with me every step of the way on my adventures, even though I embarrass them on a daily basis with my unorthodox way of looking at life. Not for the faint hearted!
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