I am a zombie

Bloody hell I feel like death warmed up... Ok I feel less out of breath, but when doing my morning ablutions I could have very easily fell asleep sitting up in the water with the bubbled shampoo still on my hair! And unfortunately the tiredness cancelled out the good feeling today... I should have been sensible and had booked the day off work, but being sensible has never come easily to me.

My oxygen machine didn't sound that loud in the day time when testing it, but in the dead of night it's a very different story. I had to cover up the light on the machine with my sock for starters as I love a dark room. Maybe I should have used a well worn one and then the smell may have knocked me out. The tops of my ears hurt from the nose specs, as when you lay on the tubes it rather pulls down the headset on your ears, so I could end up looking like Spock from my ears getting misshapen. You also have this fear niggling in the back of your head that you may strangle yourself or lay on the tubes and squash them, stopping the flow so then all the noise is in vain.

I got so tired at work come lunchtime, that I couldn't even write properly let alone drive home safely, so I had to have a 20mins sleep in one of the offices.

Tonight I am having a can of Pimms to hopefully lull me to sleep and to wear the earplugs that I brought on the way home... either way it ain't going to be a late night. Last night I didn't want to go to bed and tonight I want to skip dinner and climb in it... Wish me luck because I think I'm going to need it until I get the balance right. It will come I know. Just a matter of adjusting again, but hopefully soon as looking like a zombie isn't a good look!

Lots of love Debbie x