I think I am a mermaid

I made five new friends tonight. All bright orange and a memory span worse than mine.
No not the cast from 'The only way is Essex.' They are Lynn's goldfish.
For some unknown reason they always swim to the side of their tank when I go round Lynn's and they just stay motionless in the water staring at me. I used to get quite paranoid when it's happened before, but I've realised they only get interested in me when I have my oxygen on.
I'm beginning to think that maybe they think I'm that deep sea diver that you see in fish tanks wearing it's oxygen tubes and that I remind them fondly of when they were fishlets in the pet shop?!
I am transfixed by them and if I move my mouth like them, they do it back... Whoa I am a fish whisperer!
They are soothing to watch and that's what I need at the moment.

I had Ruth over earlier this morning after I spoke to the office and told them that I wasn't feeling right at the moment. Ruth rushed over, which that in it's self is worrying and gave me the once over, plus a bit of extra physio. She has told the team that I have to be kept a strict eye on, as we don't want a repeat of the last bout as she is on leave next week. Hopefully we will know for sure on Wednesday when my results come back, but to be this close to getting this bloody angiogram and then to go down with some infection would just be unfair.
Why do you always feel yuk when you have a bank holiday looming on the horizon, in fact we have two straight on top of each other.

I guess this will be how I feel when waiting for the transplant. How awful would it be to get the call and then I find out that I have something brewing like now. How rigid are they about temperatures etc? How many times could a person take being told that unfortunately you are not quite well enough?

Thankfully mother's wound is healing and is less painful for her, so hopefully she will be less demanding and I can rest a little more.
Tonight was good though, as we laughed a lot and laughter makes you feel so much better. And I have my new 'Coolsleeper' mattress topper on my bed now, so it will be interesting to see if I sleep well without the hot sweats that usually accompany my sleep. I now have a mattress, a memory foam and this cooling topper on my bed, I'm beginning to feel like the Princess and the pea!
I'm off to try it out now, so goodnight.

Lots of love Debbie x