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I'll be 55 this August... I've had bronchiectasis for ten years plus this year... End stage lung disease for the past year...been on oxygen for three years... and have I got used to it yet?... nah! I am now waiting for the biggie; a double lung and maybe a heart transplant. I love my life weirdly enough, because I have some wonderful family and friends who are with me every step of the way on my adventures, even though I embarrass them on a daily basis with my unorthodox way of looking at life. Not for the faint hearted!

Tuesday, 21 September 2010

Lost opportunities and lost presents

As it was World Peace day I decided no hissy fits for a whole 24hrs, although the twit who drove a horse box around Bulford Mill nearly made me swear out loud, but luckily for him not only was I making my day a no tantrum zone... but I was just too knackered to care.
And the RAC you are the best in the world... thank you Jez, you made Oliver and me two happy people and stopped both of us swearing.

Work was still full on for most of the day, but there was two rainbows for me. Firstly another visit from our cute new chaplain, who has managed to get most of us women on our best behaviour and smiling, something that is rare in our office at the moment. I think that is what our department needs and I know ALL the women's libbers out there will properly shun me, but no one wants to look like a harridan in front of a handsome chappie let alone a man of the cloth!

Secondly a lovely friend's birthday pressie to me has got lost in the post... hoorah! I know that sounds weird, but I have been feeling a bit awful as I felt that she was waiting for me to say I loved her present, especially after I said I loved her card. But I couldn't because I hadn't had one from her and that was most strange as she is a very sweet favourite young friend. I didn't want to ask her 'Here did you not buy me a pressie?' which I should have done in a jokey way, but that would have sounded awful too.
Of course it didn't help that I was off ill for my birthday and she was away on holiday for a couple of weeks, the I was off and then she was off and then it was full on at work with no chance to have a coffee on your own let alone together and the opportunity to drop it in the conversation was lost. We never manage to finish a sentence off nowadays and this will probably last for a couple of months yet. Even our conversations on our shared love for True Blood would get interrupted for goodness sake with work getting in the way.
In the end she asked me if she had upset either Sam or myself this week because we were distant bless her? So even though this had nothing to do with our lack of talking... that was just sheer stress, I did the next best thing, I asked another one of her friends to solve the riddle.
A lesson learnt here... make more time for people you care for. Oo the chaplain is rubbing off on me!
Mind you perhaps today wasn't the best day to ask when she was worried that we were distant this week... Honestly angel if you are reading this, it's because work is grim and tiring at the moment and we aren't getting chance to talk to anyone other than about work.

So peace reigns again in my mind.

Lots of love Debbie x

2 comments:

  1. The Chaplain is rubbing off on you??

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  2. Maybe I should re phrase that!! The chaplain's calm is rubbing off on me!

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