A really lovely day today with both sons and my sweet daughter-in-law all coming around for a Not-a-Sunday lunch but a roast dinner none the less. All these bank holidays have had me losing the plot and I can see how mother gets so confused with her days.
It was good to see my family around the table while we raised our glasses for an exciting 2011 for all of us in whatever way we hope. It was lovely cooking for them and hearing them laughing at each other around the table and later at the film we were watching.
After they went, I sat thinking about what I had learnt in 2010. Definitely that I can adapt to whatever if thrown at me. When my new line manager said that my trouble was I couldn't adapt to changes, I laughed in her face and although that was a bit cruel of me, just looking back over 2010 shows what changes have occurred to me and I was still fighting. Ok she was talking changes at work, but I had more pressing ones; mainly staying alive by going on overnight oxygen early on in the year and shortly afterwards going on full term oxygen. Even needing a trolley to help get me around didn't throw me that much, as it was my idea heavens forbid.
Giving up work was a huge change, but wasn't as awful as I originally thought. I do miss my friends at work, but not so much the work. Although I did find myself offering to do my eldest son's ironing, as I do need to feel a bit useful now and again.
I have learnt patience the hard way and that was a big change. I know letting go and having to let others take control proved very hard, especially when on the cruise in April/May, but when I admitted it to Derek and he assured me that I was just frustrated and not being a diva, I felt a hell of a lot better for it. Knowing when to pass things over was another lesson and knowing when my body needed rest was a big learning curve. Sometimes however much I want to do things, if it's going to make me suffer in the long run, then it just isn't worth it.
So see you can teach an old dog new tricks!
Lots of love Debbie x
About Me
- Me...Debbie Burden... or known as Burders
- I'll be 55 this August... I've had bronchiectasis for ten years plus this year... End stage lung disease for the past year...been on oxygen for three years... and have I got used to it yet?... nah! I am now waiting for the biggie; a double lung and maybe a heart transplant. I love my life weirdly enough, because I have some wonderful family and friends who are with me every step of the way on my adventures, even though I embarrass them on a daily basis with my unorthodox way of looking at life. Not for the faint hearted!
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