And we are back to the drawing board. 3.30am I actually drifted off to sleep after laying tossing and turning in a vain attempt to find a cool spot in my bed.
I'm not sure if it was sleeping so long this morning, the heat, the drugs or the infection or maybe a bit of everything, but sleep was evading me well and truly. I got up at 9am so not to have a re-run tonight, plus I had to check on whether I should still go to the oxygen clinic and re-hab.
No and no. Oxygen clinic would get a misleading result and Ruth declared me unfit to exercise and changed my tablets, which is just as well as I have a nice rash going up my leg!
Thought I'd try myself out ready for work tomorrow by going to get a couple of bits from the supermarket. I'm not hungry, but I really fancy some fizzy drink.
Well that was enlightening, waves of nausea, sweating like mad so all my hair was stuck to my head and felt like the floor was going to come up and hit me right between the eyes. I was sure that that the security guard thought I had nicked something as I was acting so weirdly... Oh and how many days to Oliver's wedding... oh yes... four! Oh lordy lordy.
Ok determined something and that is I'm not ready for work tomorrow. Hopefully a good nights sleep tonight and rest up tomorrow, plus it is a bit cooler so that's a big bonus.
Feel very tearful too as I have things to do and can't and to crown it all, I think I've upset my brother. Why can't I please everyone and why can't my body act like a normal person's body?
Life sucks.
Lots of love Debbie x
About Me
- Me...Debbie Burden... or known as Burders
- I'll be 55 this August... I've had bronchiectasis for ten years plus this year... End stage lung disease for the past year...been on oxygen for three years... and have I got used to it yet?... nah! I am now waiting for the biggie; a double lung and maybe a heart transplant. I love my life weirdly enough, because I have some wonderful family and friends who are with me every step of the way on my adventures, even though I embarrass them on a daily basis with my unorthodox way of looking at life. Not for the faint hearted!
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