Well thanks to a large glass of white wine and a couple of pain killers, I slept wonderfully well!
I must admit it was a bit of a challenge getting up this morning as I really couldn't see the point of dragging my weary arse into work, so yes I was about 15mins late and I didn't really give a damn. And then I threw a full bottle of water across the room at the wall opposite in a fit of pique... must admit I was very impressed at Sally's reflexes when it came to ducking!
I had a good cry and felt better for it. I am so lucky to have so many caring friends around me, as without them I would have gone under a long time ago. Even if half of them patted or grabbed the arm that had the torture on it last night!
Oliver took me out to the Compasses for a meal and we talked about everything and anything which was lovely, bless him.
Ok so tomorrow is another day and I will grit my teeth and get on with it. But in future my specialist will see real me and not the rosy coloured one which gets knackered at the drop of a hat, but is so vain that she hides it. I will ask for help more and stay at home if I'm so tired that I just want to sleep. As Sam says this is one time that trying to show a positive outlook has backfired on me and I won't make that mistake again!
Lots of love Debbie x
About Me
- Me...Debbie Burden... or known as Burders
- I'll be 55 this August... I've had bronchiectasis for ten years plus this year... End stage lung disease for the past year...been on oxygen for three years... and have I got used to it yet?... nah! I am now waiting for the biggie; a double lung and maybe a heart transplant. I love my life weirdly enough, because I have some wonderful family and friends who are with me every step of the way on my adventures, even though I embarrass them on a daily basis with my unorthodox way of looking at life. Not for the faint hearted!
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