Ms Angry from Silver End debates

Lordy, lordy I have been to Slimming World and I am confused with what I'm allowed to eat and what are syns, greens or reds?!
I'm sure it will be easy once I get the hang of it, but just reading the guide book which explains things, makes me feel hungry and I know for certain that I have just ate 6 syns in the shape of a chocolate mint crunchy bar!
The ladies there all seemed a happy bunch and weren't trying to eat each others legs off while sitting listening to the talk, but did look very excited at the bowl of fruit which was the prize for the biggest weight loss.
And there seemed to be a lot of women zooming into the hall, getting weighed and zooming out again. Were they busy or hadn't done very well?
I think I really need to sit down and read whats what so I can give this my best shot.
What worries me, is that the ladies who stayed had to announce what they think they were going to loose the following week. I wonder if I can just do half a pound a week?!
Ok so you can keep tabs on me;
Starting weight 11st 11lb 1/2oz ...target weight chosen by me 10st 2lb... measurements tonight 41" chest 42" waist and 45" hips... so lets watch and see how this pans out.

I also started back at rehab today and already my legs feel a bit on the stiff side. I think I was showing off as there are quite a few whining men there this time and as I was only one of two women there again, I thought I'd show them what wimps they sounded.
I'm hoping that the rehab along with my extra walking will help shift some weight too as well as upping my strength for the oncoming months.
So far Greta and Ann have stinking colds, so I want and need to keep fit, so I don't go down with what they have.

Now I will apologise in advance to my friends who are smokers for my next rant.
Driving to the hospital today to pick up my monthly drugs, I was listening on BB2 to the Jeremy Vine show. I don't actually like his debate show, I have to be honest and some of the viewers who phone in with their views get right up my nose.
And today was no different and as normal I ended up yelling at the radio as driving along to Broomfield.
Today's discussion was about Michael Douglas smoking again after he has just kicked throat cancer, not that you ever truly kick cancer, it's always looming in the background.
Now I don't know whether he is smoking again or not so I can't comment on him, but the knob heads that phoned in...well a different matter!
The excuses that people gave to exonerate themselves for carrying on smoking while being treated for cancer were unbelievable.
It is an addiction yes, an addiction is only a tough habit and habits can be broken if you try bloody hard. It may seem too hard I know, but surely if you have been told that you could die from something, is it not worth trying harder to break that habit?
After all you are fighting for your life here.
I last smoked over twenty five years ago and yes I did enjoy it. I was what can be described as an on/off smoker who would give up as and when. Eleven years was my longest 'off' time before this last time of giving up.
I gave up on the day I got engaged and restarted the day Oliver started school. The last time was it though, I knew then I would never ever start smoking again, as my sons were so proud of me for kicking the habit and so was I.
I gave up by going cold turkey when I was getting over a heavy cold. They tasted rank and I just thought then, 'Why was I doing this?'
I was also a trained smoking cessation counsellor at the university and helped quite a few students and staff to give up and stay a non smoker while they were at uni at least.
The knob heads who were calling in, all mentioned that they were under stress and that was why they had to carry on smoking.
Maybe the patients who can't have a certain drug because it's deemed too expensive, because money was being wasted on people that wouldn't help themselves by stopping smoking, might be stressed too?
Maybe then the callers should pay something back towards the costs of all their NHS treatment if they have so little disregard for their bodies? That money could be well spent on people who would jump through hoops to be given the chance to carry on living?
Yes the same goes for fat people, which is why I am trying hard to lose weight. I am taking responsibility.
These callers are probably the same people who sit moaning in the waiting rooms about the length of time they had been kept waiting for their appointments. Tough... are you paying private for it? No? Well shut up moaning then. Some of you are there because you have abused your bodies and are still abusing them by lightening up as soon as you get outside.
I hate the fact that people think my disease is smoking related. I also hate the fact that the disease was accelerated by breathing in secondary smoke when working at a pub. What we secondary smokers breathe in is pure nicotine, where what the smoker breathes in, is filtered.
I suffered because of their choice to smoke.
I know I sound bitter, but I am. I am trying so hard to stay alive and to stay well enough to have this transplant, see my grandchildren be born, grow old with my friends etc and these callers were trying hard to excuse themselves because they were stressed.
Yeah right. I'm bloody stressed too.

Rant over. It's safe to come out from cover now.

Lots of love Debbie x