I wonder, I wonder

Autumn has definitely arrived now as the leaves are really falling down off the trees, there is a definite change in the weather, it's getting so gloomy now.
But it is November with Bonfire night on Saturday and over the years, that could go either way. I've known it freezing cold while watching the fireworks wearing knitted hats, scarves, gloves and thick socks, then another year just a jumper would have done.
I don't think that I will be watching any fireworks close up for the obvious reasons of oxygen and sparks don't go together too well, but if there any around the village I could watch from the safety of my back garden. In fact last year, it was really mild when I sat on a garden chair in my back garden with a glass of wine, watching some amazing fireworks going off from the new housing estate across the field from mine.
All very civilised.

I drove Barbara over to the Tiptree Jam Factory this afternoon, so she could buy some Christmas presents and as I thought that maybe I should be thinking about Christmas too, so I actually brought some cute table treats and felt jolly pleased with myself. I also brought a rather sparkly dress ring for myself too...well it's a Christmas pressie for me from me!
I've never been an organised person and if I have brought presets early for other people rather than my boys, I've invariably misplaced them and then unearthed them again come Easter. I can remember one year when we were very strapped for cash, buying presents for the following Christmas dead cheap in the January sale and I don't think we ever did find those ones.
There were cogs whirring around in my brain though for present ideas as I was walking around the gift shop this afternoon...I must start writing lists.

I was a good girl and went to my WEA course tonight after missing it last week. But I have no idea what happened on the way to Greta's car from my bungalow, but my stats must have plummeted, as when we got into the hall I felt really spaced out. Greta said that my lips and chin had turned blue and my finger tips looked as if I had been rubbing them on a brand new pair of denims, as they were so blue too.
I do hope that this blip soon passes, as I was really enjoying the sensation of feeling nearly normal before going for my assessment. Ok not nearly normal obviously, how can I be normal with oxygen being pumped up my nostrils nearly 24hrs a day and bringing up nasties off my chest every time I cough, but I had the feeling that I wasn't as quite as useless as normal which was really nice.
I wondered once again, as I had tried so hard to get my fitness levels up, that maybe I had tried too hard and once the assessment was all over, that I had crashed and burned? Perhaps it's a good thing, because I do have a habit of forgetting what has gone before and now I'm beginning to remember how everything is such an effort just to try and be normal.
I wonder what tomorrow will bring? Will I hear anything from Papworth about going on the Friday Active list?
Who knows?

Lots of love Debbie x