I'm running away to join the circus

Oh my giddy aunt.
Well I think I am mentally scarred after what I've seen tonight. People shoving meat hooks through one nostril and out through the other or swallowing rather long and rather sharp swords. Ladies so bendy, that they had every straight man in the audience licking their lips. Knife throwing, fireworks going off from buttock cheeks and a midget's todger, which wasn't very midget at all!
It was in fact the 'Circus of Horrors' that had come to town. I don't think Chelmsford will ever be the same again!
Sam very kindly lent me her husband for the night and bless him, he is going to be the talk of the school where he works, as we meet lots of mums from the school or from his football club. We laughed and said that he will have to take a letter from Sam next time to show them, that the old lady he was with was Sam's friend and out with Sam's permission!
I bet they were saying, 'My god she's a lot older than Sam and she's a crip!'

At least that took my mind off of tomorrow's impending decision time appointment. What happens if there is no decision? I hadn't thought about that one. It wouldn't be the first time that my specialist has gone off completely in a different direction.

I can't believe that Sadie is worried that I might have yet another infection, it's only just under three weeks since I had that bastard one that knocked me off my feet.
Sadie is pretty spot on at noticing changes in me and today it was thick green gloop coming from my lungs and I had to be honest and admit to her that it had been like that all day and complete with a killer headache.
It's only because I am bloody minded that I went tonight.
I can't imagine I will get much sleep tonight worrying about his verdict in the morning and nightmares of the midget's todger with a bowling ball hanging from it!

Lots of love Debbie x