I seem to be swamped in paperwork at the moment for my mother and myself and I really can't be arsed to sort any of it out at this present time.
I can't concentrate on anything.
There are parking permits and emergency care plans to sort out for my mother, forms from Papworth to fill in and bills to pay for us both and my head is still in a foggy assessment hangover mode.
Why do you tend to have sort everything out at a time in your life when you really just want to disappear and hide. I will be so upset if the help I'm sorting out for my mother is cancelled, as not only is it a complete and utter waste of my energy and time, but it's to safe guard my mother.
I need to know that while I'm in hospital, that she is alright.
My bed was my safety net this morning and I was very tempted to just stay there reading my book instead of getting up and taking mother to Maldon, but I know she loves going there.
I'm glad I went, as every time you go you see something different and today it was a load of grown men having a mini Cowes style boat race with their remote control boats on the boating lake and quite a crowd was forming to watch it and take part.
They even had a recording of umpire or whatever they have in the boating world, calling all boats to the starting line complete with countdown pips! One of the men even waded out into the lake to move the buoys so the boats could sail round them, now that's dedication.
Men will be boys bless them!
Apart from that, both the people elsewhere and the leaves on the trees had thinned out too. Leaves are really beginning to fall thick and fast now, but I suppose we will be turning our clocks back soon.
The new season is now really kicking into action aswell as a new phase of my life is now beginning for me too.
Being there today makes you realise that life just carries on regardless and that's how I have to look at it too, but I have to admit that I needed to sit in the dark in the cinema tonight and watch an action film, so I could just stop thinking.
I'll be better tomorrow.
Lots of love Debbie x
About Me
- Me...Debbie Burden... or known as Burders
- I'll be 55 this August... I've had bronchiectasis for ten years plus this year... End stage lung disease for the past year...been on oxygen for three years... and have I got used to it yet?... nah! I am now waiting for the biggie; a double lung and maybe a heart transplant. I love my life weirdly enough, because I have some wonderful family and friends who are with me every step of the way on my adventures, even though I embarrass them on a daily basis with my unorthodox way of looking at life. Not for the faint hearted!
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